Tenaciously seeking God

I went on a senior high guys paint balling trip to teach the guys about manhood and learned about seeking God. This retreat was awesome. We played paintball until we ran out of CO2 and paint. We played on a woods and a speed ball coarse. When I came home I was excited because God gave me some great opportunities to have conversations with students. As I sat in my house and started reflecting on the weekend something just hit me. When we were playing paintball on the woods coarse I would seek to not get hit in hopes that I may find someone. If I didn't I was OK with wondering around. I played a rather passive game. To be honest getting shot just didn't sound fun. Then we moved to the speed ball course. This is a much faster game, hence the name of the course. I played a little bit more of a aggressive game. The second to the last game I played, there was three of us who played a passive type game verse three students that are anything but passive. My team ended up winning that game because we were just plain more aggressive than the other team. We caught them off guard. As I reflected on this weekend and my time paint balling I came to the realization that I handle my walk with God much like I did paint balling. I was passive. I was resting on what I know, thinking that is enough. I was not being aggressive with my relationship with Jesus. I need to tenaciously seek Jesus, and not sit back hoping God will use me. I think to often we as believers in Jesus sit back and hope something happens instead of putting yourself into a position where God can use you more.